23 June 2011
I am confused confused very confused!! What i am doing is all wrong! y i cant stop myself? day n day i have to subject myself to mental torment, distract myself all the time...i cannot concentrate on studying also!!
Someone please help me!! Someone please give me answers! y i have to feel hurt again n again n again...y i cannot be happy?!
I know I shouldn't ask for more because i am already very fortunate to be here, to be able to enjoy what most people cannot get to experience...but still...i am suffering..gg crazy at this rate...
My good time is ending soon...i don want it to end and i cant bear for it to end as well...BUT...reality cannot be change right?
why is this all a REAL dream only?!! all of these will cease to exist when we all gg back....i m back to square one...everything is back where they r...but the memories will continue to stay inside my head, in my computer...and it hurts everytime i look at them! It will hurt even more....
Y destiny have to arrange such a path for me? If there is no destiny, y make me walk this path, a path that leads me to eternal darkness, where is my light? i don deserve any light? What have i done to deserve such?
Where is my happiness? where r u?.....please....
our greece thing is really ggxx. exciting n impromtu. i like. lol. if u all were carry backbacks maybe slightly better. but if luggage, den probably your arm now have xiao lao shu le?
ReplyDeleteanw, just wan to tell u tht maybe its still not time yet. i kinda oso wait till sian liao. but rem, really cannot anyhow whack. dou wait so long le, must get the right one! good luck ok!! we're on the same boat! =D
hahaha...but do u noe what is the real problem actually?! ~ i don want to hurt someone...but i m afraid what i m doing now is actually hurting someone ~ i m really upset with myself!
ReplyDeleteim not too sure.. but my feelings tells me that its kinda right. n u havent send us an email that u promised to send..
ReplyDeleteI also dun really noe how to advise. but i guess its better to communicate properly with whoever it is.. that way, it'll be better. dont make guesses or assumptions. just brace yourself and talk abt it ok! =D
anw, your sis issue, i guess it will be over once she cools down ba. both of u zai qi tou shang. thats y lk that.. yup... you shi hao shang liang ok! =D