Tuesday, June 28, 2011

No lesson?!

28 june 2011

All my lessons are ending soon!! ~ No, is all my lessons ended! what am I gg to do? I gt nothing to do....all day...haha...shiok in a way...but bored in another way! I want to go travel but hmmm...I alone? ~ though i am confident n more daring than before...haha i still don want to challenge myself! haha...

Oh ya...i still need to study for exam....hmmm...but oral exam should be slack enough right?!

Bored bored bored.... oh ya..still gt the fyp that makes me headache!

Today is tue! ~ my friends come my place every tue to cook n eat n drink n talk n talk till the cow comes home...haha..hmm....

whenever I think i am leaving here soon, i will miss alot alot alot of things....things will be different when i am back in sg! ~ good or bad?

But i cannot bear for things to go back where they are....am i being too emo already? Being too sentimental is bad right? I should face reality.... I am making myself to do just that! I remind myself everyday BUT still it hurts...that why if possible i run almost everyday...vent out my unhappiness ~ should never bottled it....

but recently, weather is too hot ~ not conducive for running.... have to force myself to run!

Sunday, June 26, 2011

A quarrel

26 June 2011

I quarreled with my sister today!!!! I am in Germany NOW, also can quarrel with her?!?! I called her via skype...and guess what?!! we can end up quarreling? She cannot stand me! she thinks the that i getting very frustrated n the things i say she cannot understand....n so on..n we start quarreling!....she says all these nvm, I ONLY get angry when she says she got no family members, INCLUDING ME! she cannot communicate with me, and the MOST angry thing is, she twisted my words and throw back at me!! She wanted me to be the one to cut off ties with her, she wanted me to be the one that says i will never call her n talk to her again!!!!

I am sooooooooo angry!!!! I have never been this angry before for sooo long, ever since i came here in germany...i guess only she has the capability to make me this ANGRY!!!! my goodness! I slam my laptop n door!! i almost went out of my dorm without my keys!!!

N I seriously very hate it when she says that i m right n she is all wrong!!!! She even says "sorry, all my faults can"......ROARR!!! she doesn't mean it at all! n I very very hate it when someone says these.....very angry very angry....until now still very angry..that i m trembling and cannot type properly!!!!!

N i really cannot stand my aunt!!! she is like adding salt n vinegar!!! Y she must be sooo kapo? what is her business?!!

Friday, June 24, 2011

A happy but sick day!

24 June 2011

I went out to have sushi buffet with rj, ct, lu in konigstrasses! Then later we went shopping! I bought a pair of shoes ~ come to think of it...hmmm..that pair of shoes is nice but i seldom wear those when I am in sg...hmmm...impulsive buying?!

lu bought also a pair of shoes n he thinks he buys it impulsively too...just because all of us also bought a pair of shoes ~ we combined our receipts to claim tax....

ct bought many stuff ~ the most worth it is actually a fossil shirt! ~ 15euros only!!!!

While shopping...i started to feel nausea....i tried to control n pretend nothing happen...but arghh...was really feeling very uncomfortable!!!!

by the time i reach home, i ate chinese medicine n fell asleep in my clothes!! I guess...i can only do this here...haha cannot imagine when i m back home in sg!

seriously, come to think of it, i have absolute freedom when i m here, i do things when i like, how i like...just like now, wake up in the middle of the night to blog..then snack on cereal! hahahaha...i cannot do everthing i like in sg...my mum n dad will nag at me, say this n say that...i guess i will miss such absolute freedom when i m back in sg!

all in all....i m sick ~ nausea n bloated but a peaceful day for me...not like yesterday or the day before when i m sooo troubled by issues ~ make me cannot concentrate in doing work ~ making me crazy!!! arghhh... i hope i can continue to maintain this peaceful state of mind! ~ i don want to keep on thinking about it that will make my heart hurts.....

Thursday, June 23, 2011

An "WAH" experience in my life! ~ Greece

15 june ~ 16 june

I am about to blog the experience of my life! ~ nothing good ~ nevertheless an experience!

I arrived in Athens on 14th june 2011. We are scheduled to leave Athens on 15 june via a train to thesessloniki then from Thesessloniki take a overnight train to Istanbul (Turkey). We are supposed to reach Istanbul on 16june 2011. ~ This is the plan! But i guess things never go as plan.... a series of unfortunates events are revealing it self....

On 15th june, after sending my friend lr off, me, ka n lu are supposed to go to the main train station in Athens to board a train scheduled for departure to thesessloniki at 1 plus..on the day of departure, there is a heavy strike by the train workers, huge demonstrations and many streets are blocked off, police are everywhere, things went alittle haywire in athens...

lu went to ask around where to buy the train tickets to thesessloniki, someone directed him yo some ulu agency in some small street n alley...on our way there to the agency, we have to make some roundabout with our HEAVY luggage due to the demonstration, racing against time...after much work and effort we finally reach the agency, BUT at the agency we were told that we r supposed to buy our tickets from the main train station and not here in the agency!!! so we have to go to the main train station...we have walk back the same route again..with much effort to get to this station and board a train to the main train station. Finally we reach the main train station, we asked the officers how do we purchase train tickets n he said there r NO train today at all!!! We r all stunned! lu then ask him how we get to thesessloniki then, n he said we hav to gg to take a bus at "victoria street", which is near the place we came from!!!! rOar! We have to go back the same region again..with all our luggage...finally we reach there, we have to search high n low for the bus terminal! n after finding the bus terminal, lu went to ask around where can we board a bus to thesesslonik n how to purchase tickets, we r told that there is a bus at 2:30pm, but the police stops the bus from coming so the bus is scheduled to come at 4:30pm instead... that will be too late for us..we r supposed to catch a night train in thesessloniki to istanbul..so we look for alternative, that is to go to another bus terminal~ kossifiki ~ there is a bus at 3pm

To get to the another bus terminal, we have to take a bus 081, but first we have to find where to board the bus!! wE walk through many streets n alleys, seeing all the drug addicts n weird people around, all the streets r damn dirty and disgusting...street names r not clear and all in Greek!!! After some help from passer-by and much much effort, we finally located the bus 081..n boarded it!!!

When we arrived at the bus terminal, we r just in time for departure to thesessloniki!...after a close to 6~ 7 hours bus ride, we finally reach thesessloniki main bus station at about 9:15pm! lu went to ask around, n he found out that we have to take a train from thesessloniki main train station to istanbul...so we need to wait for a bus that will bring us to the train station...we checked the bus timing, n we only need to wait for 15mins for the next bus....so we waited n waited n waited....

After 20mins, still no bus arrived, yet we see buses moving around..lu went to ask someone, n we realised that there is no buses operating today!!! the lady in the bus terminal said there is a bus n then now someone says NO buses r operating TODAY!!! so the only way we can gg to the main train station is via taxi!...okie so we took a taxi..5 euros for 3 person...quite reasonable still...

When we reach the station, lu went to ask the polices over there how do we find the train that leaves istanbul...N..guess what he says?!! There is NO train to istanbul!!!!!!! There never is such a train anymore!!!!!! OMGG!!! Thunderbolt striking..what r we gg to do now?? we r stuck here! we cannot get to istanbul on time, there is no accomodation for the night!!!

The police suggested taking a train tmr to komotini, a border between greece n turkey, MAYBE at there we can find a train to istanbul! MAYbe??!!! n where the hell is komotini...so foreign..what if we gg all the way there then realise there is no way to get to istanbul?! then how?? WE r all stunned n lost...

I saw a internet cafe..so we decided to do some last min research again....i checked n realise that the info i found earlier r all outdated!!! Greece is in serious financial problem, n it cuts off all international train services!!! OMG!! I landed my friends all in HOT soup!! It is all my faults! Anyway, I found out that a company called Ktel offered bus services from thesessloniki to istanbul ~ 2 daily departures ~ 10am n 10pm.. we can purchase tickets n board the bus at this street called Irini's street 17....

Hmmm... a gleam of light... next i decided to treat my friends accomodation out of guilt..i found a hotel nearby via booking.com..n we decided to gg n ask if there is room available for 3! Impromptu...right?

We found 2 possible places to stay, we ask the police how to get there, n he said by taxi, everything by taxi!! lu is frustrated by it! we then met a funny n weird taxi driver outside, we cannot understand him, he cannot understand us! the drive even take out his cell phone to call someone, n ask that person to talk to lu!! the entire situation is amusing..though..but i know lu is really not happy already..after my deliberation we boarded that particular taxi to one of the hotel place...Funny..haha..lu came all the way to my side n open the taxi door for me! haha..so out of blue n soo..hmmm..don noe how to say....
Actually the places we stayed r simply 5 ~ 20 mins walking distance from the station, there is no need to take a cab...that is why lu is angry that the police simply just says everything can only be reached by cab!

Anyway, we just went in to the hotel, and ask if there is room for 3 person...n luckily he says YES!!! Nice room with bedsheets, hot showers, air con, tv n fridge! only for 45 euros! for 3 person! not bad already!

lu suggested to gg out n eat to lighten up the mood...we ate...n later went to walk around to find the irini street, we even buy fruits back! it was close to 2am when we r back in our hotel!

Finally!!! can rest after a gd hot shower!!!..the guys entertain themselves with vic jumpshots!!! they just kept laughing n laughing...i even called my mum using skype..free wifi avail! ka even talk to my mum for awhile!

We slept at about 4am plus..we need to wake up at 8..so we can prepare n take the 10am bus! but because greece time is 1hr forward, we woke 9 plus...we rush out to get to the bus terminal.....

By the time we reach there, lu went to ask around, n someone told him the bus to istanbul is not here is at another place.... we rush to another place...but we cannot find the place he mentioned, so we think such a place does not exist...so we went back n ask again...rush to find the place again N we saw the bus to istanbul LEFT!!!!!! right in front of our eyes!!! ROAR!

so we r forced to board the next bus at 10pm!! we finally buy the tickets though from the agency called "crazy holidays"..we left our luggage there n stoned...just stoned for 1 hr...before we decided to eat n tour around thesessloniki...unexpected....

When night time arrives...we finally managed to board the bus!...a load off the shoulders! "phew".....we will just reach istanbul on the 17 instead of 16 june...

What a dAy!!!! ~ 2 days somemore...even blogging this incident is tiring!

Emo.....

23 June 2011

I am confused confused very confused!! What i am doing is all wrong! y i cant stop myself? day n day i have to subject myself to mental torment, distract myself all the time...i cannot concentrate on studying also!!

Someone please help me!! Someone please give me answers! y i have to feel hurt again n again n again...y i cannot be happy?!

I know I shouldn't ask for more because i am already very fortunate to be here, to be able to enjoy what most people cannot get to experience...but still...i am suffering..gg crazy at this rate...
My good time is ending soon...i don want it to end and i cant bear for it to end as well...BUT...reality cannot be change right?

why is this all a REAL dream only?!! all of these will cease to exist when we all gg back....i m back to square one...everything is back where they r...but the memories will continue to stay inside my head, in my computer...and it hurts everytime i look at them! It will hurt even more....

Y destiny have to arrange such a path for me? If there is no destiny, y make me walk this path, a path that leads me to eternal darkness, where is my light? i don deserve any light? What have i done to deserve such?

Where is my happiness? where r u?.....please....

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

My feelings....

21 June 2011

I have been in Europe for close to 4 months already...time really flies...in a month time..i will be returning to sg!! MIXED feelings!!!

I am feeling really bless to be able to come to Europe and tour to so many countries and places!
Amsterdam (Holland) ~ prague (Czech Republic) ~ budapest (Hungary) ~ Vienna (Austria)~ Salzburg (Austria) ~ Strasbourg (France) ~ Barcelona (Spain) ~ Norway ~ Santorini ~ Mykonos ~ Athens ~ Thesessaloniki ~ Istanbul (Turkey) ~ London.....and within Germany, I have almost been to all the cities and places!

Really really really bless...given my financial situation and lousy results in sch0ol! Sometimes I wonder if any of these will be taken away from me eventually! AM i worrying too much? Because i feel soo fortunate that sometimes i don dare to request or wish or ask for anything...no matter how i wish or want that thing!

Coming to europe and touring europe is like a dream come true for many people...not to mentioned my young age!

School here is slackest! Slack to the max! I seriously don noe what Have i studied here...life is sooo shiok! June is the month of holidays...
I guess this is a gd break for me to rest and prepare me for my final year in NUS!

Even though i nvr learn much academic stuff, I learn really really alot of things that cannot be experience or learnt in sg! These r the X - things that will help me in my overall!

I made the best of the best friends here...my friends all like me...which is quite surprising?! Is it? Don noe leh...people always think i m nice...hmm... mayb my sg friends have other opinions? hahahaha....
Will miss my jap and taiwan friend the most!!!! ~ think i will prob cry when i gg back sg!

As for other aspects of my life....well i can only say things never gg expectedly! ~ many things happen unexpectedly...hmmm....food for thought?

Monday, June 20, 2011

Norway ~ Alesund

1 ~ 7 june 2011

A pretty small town, with pretty coloured houses!
Norway is close to having 24hrs of daylights during summer time..so we can wonder around in the town despite the time being 2am..haha..
We cook our dinner ~ just tooo expensive to eat out!
Our home sweet hostel ~ haha ~ not very clean though....

Norway ~ Oslo

7 june 2011

Boring big city ~ so don't feel like posting anything....cause it is just soo not special and boring that I don't feel like uploading the pics! Or writing anything...

Norway ~ Stryn

1 ~ 7 June 2011

We went to stryn ~ another small town in norway ~ to catch a bus to oslo (big city in norway).
As usual, the place is again ridiculously beautiful but there is nothing to do there and scarcely any people ~ no noise on a sunday! haha..imagine that!
We decided to trespass into someone garden which is near a beautiful lake, and sit there to have our lunch and dinner! That particular lake is where we put our drinks to chill it
and the place where the guys did facial ~ soaking their face in ice cold water despite the sun!
Some pics!
That is how we spent a day there! =)

Norway ~ the place we stayed ~ Hellystylt

1 ~ 7 June 2011

Some pics to show the place we stayed! in this beautiful and quiet town...with nothing to do but only surrounded by ridiculously beautiful scenery! ~ that is life to some people, i guess =p

This is the room we stayed in ~ 3 nights!! So small and cramp right? But this is the cozy place for me...and i had soo much fun in this room with my friends! Oh and the funniest thing is ka, who slept above me, broke one of the benches below his bed! ROAR! I was sooo shocked when I saw the bench broke in front of me ~ speechless...haha!
This is the exact pic one will see when i step put of my hostel! Can u imagine u r sourrounded by only all those that u see in the above pic? ~ sooo unbelivably beautiful!

More pics!.....

Beautiful place ~ beautiful memories ~ BeAuTiFul =)

Norway ~ personal thoughts and feelings

1 ~ 7 June 2011

Norway simply bond me with my friends!...I realized that I love them alot now! I will miss them badly when i leave stuttgart!....even though lu is gg back sg with me, but we may not get the chance to meet up anymore.... =(

I will be going back to sg soon...my feeling is sooo mixed, i cannot bear leaving here..and yet i am glad to see my family and friends soon!

Travelling can really bond people tgt! We know each other habits and style, know each other unglam side!..haha..friendship can bloom really fast when we travel tgt! We stay in the same room, talk tgt, share music, play tgt...sometimes we play with each other until we went crazy, laugh at each other unglam photos and actions! lu n ka r soooo cute! I realised that lu is also a very funny and nice guy...quite a big change from when I first knew him...cool, composed n elitist(perhaps?)..he takes care of me n lr as well...! that is rare! haha...he treats me really nice and i m very happy to found someone that treats me nice! =)

Soooo many unforgettable bittersweet memories...so ...how can I not be sad when i go back to sg? I hope it never ends, but i must reality right? ~ mayb all that happens here is only a REAL dream ~ things will change when back in sg ~ will feeling change as well? Dreams and reality are they 2 different entities? Will they ever become one? Will my dream/wish ever come true? or am I asking too much? ~ be contented with what i have, cause worse things could have happen.......

*confused*

Norway ~ My friends ~ FUN

1 ~ 7 June 2011

I went norway with lu, lr, ka ~ we are foursome! This is the first time when we 4 went on a trip tgt! It is simply amazing and FUN! I am very very very happy! I wish time will stop and we can enjoy each other company ~ they make me very happy! They r very caring and helpful towards me, though they make fun of me most of the time, but I know I am important to them! I am soo touched by it!

Travelling tgt really bond me and my friends (I am not sure of the other way round though)..haha

Our favourite past-time is to play HEARTS ~ poker cards! It is really funny and it makes us laugh and laugh when we look at our scores! Lu is really gd at it..haha..but not for long..we r all catching up, and he now has a hard time trying to keep his score the lowest! Oh and I managed to" shoot the moon"!!!!! It is totally unexpected! I am soo happy!!! Finally I can beat lu in something he cannot achieved yet!

Another favourite past-time of ours is to look at photos we have taken during the day! WE will then laugh at all our unglam shots and all the beautiful jump shots! Lu and ka can really jump with all the different styles! Jumps shots with beautiful background! Really photos of the year! haha..that is the first time, lu wants me to tag him on fb! ahahah...

We cook tgt too! Eating out is simply too expensive! Norway is really really really expensive! One mac burger can cost me 10 sg dollar ~ about there ~ ridiculous right?! Everything is expensive about norway ~ that is one point that spoil the trip though ~ however I still had a GREAT time! ~ it is like an adventure of my time!

Pics of memories ~~


For more pic ~ see fb! =)

For the last pic, we miss our bus, so we have to camp at Frankfurt - hahn airport until the next morning for the bus!! Sleeping on cold airport dirty floor ~ an experience of my time!

We did many silly things in norway! It is really beautiful but there is simply nothing to do there! Everywhere is sooo pretty but quiet and there is only a handful of people...we hardly see any people in the town...even on sunday morning! ~ I guess that part of norway is for people who wants to escape from city life and live in quiet, peaceful and serene surrounding!

Since there is nothing to do, we spent our time slacking around, pinicking, placing our beer in the lakes to chill it! haha...eat our food that we kope from hostel breakfast! Eat potato salad with biscuits!

oh oh the guys even did facial! They soak their face in the cold water in the lakes...haha! The water is sooo cold until it is actually hurtful putting our hands or feets inside! It is amazing that there is sun, yet the water remains chilling cold!

~ more norway pics and update!

Norway ~ A beautiful & special moment in my life...

1 June ~ 7 June 2011

Norway is amazing! It is freaking pretty and beautiful! It is like one can only see this kind of scenery in magazines ~ National Geographic. When I am at there, I really feel that I am really bless and lucky....given my family financial status and situation, it is close to impossible that I will be able to go to Norway to see such beautiful nature ~ words simply cannot describe my feelings when i am in norway, looking at all the scenery, especially the FJORDS ( fjord is caused by flooding of a glacial valley with sea water, and typically occurs on Western shores with highly durable rock which resists erosion by other forces, leaving the basic fjord shape intact over the centuries. The glaciated valley which forms the basis of a fjord exists because of the slow movements of glaciers during the ice age. The glaciers carved out typical u-shaped valleys in the Earth).

Some pics to show the beauty of norway ~


The pics are really amazing right? They looks like a typical wallpaper or poster-like pictures! Can u imagine? I am just in front on all these scenery, it is like i can touch them with my bare hands, I am surrounded by nothing except all those that u can see in the pic!

Nature is really BEAUTIFUL! ~ highlights in norway